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It was so weird for me at first that he never closes his eyes when he kisses me.  Well, actually at first I didn’t notice because my eyes were closed.  I asked him about him about it and I didn’t get some sweet lies about how he can’t take his eyes off me.  I got the truth: it’s just how he is.  He likes it better that way.

I continued to close my eyes under the impression that when I close my eyes I can concentrate more on my other senses.  And I did, and not just with him.  When I was relaxing with music, I’d focus on the sounds.  In the shower on the warmth.  Laying down to rest I’d close my eyes and shut out the world and concentrate on the sensation of my body releasing tension.  Then I got curious.  I started sneaking a peek here and there.  It was uncomfortable at first, and I had to let go of that and embrace the pleasant sights.  I’m finding it complimentary and that in many cases it’s enhancing my experiences.

Last night was the real ‘eye opener’ (sorry couldn’t resist the pun).  I was hanging in the hammock chair in the ManLand listening to music and reflecting on the week. Normally I close my eyes as I listen to take in the full spectrum of sounds in the music, and so I started that way.  Then I peeked.  We had just hung new track lighting above the pool table and turned off all other lights.  It created a great atmosphere, plus I got to admire his handy work: new lights, new bar stools.  The sight warmed my heart.  My eyes continued to drift shut (and eventually I took a short nap) but I felt better each time I opened them again.

There are still times I prefer to have my eyes closed, and there are moments I look forward to feeling comfortable to openly admiring.  I must thank my love for being confident enough to be himself and helping me experience pleasures in new ways.

Now I’m curious though: in what ways have people in your life helped you to enjoy our short stint on this planet?  Have you picked up great insight, habits, perspective, or behaviors from others?  Did you ever tell them ‘Thank you’?  Do you still have time to do so?  Will you? What about God, His Son?  Will you tell Him so?